I'm A Boy, Not An It

Posted by AddictedToDrPepper1 from Cardiff - Published on 16/05/2012 at 13:44
20 comments » - Tagged as Culture, Education, People

Yn Gymraeg // Welsh version

Sub-Ed Note: While we don't condone swearing, we understand sometimes people use it to get a strong point or opinion across. Therefore we have left it in but starred out. If you would like to discuss this, our guidelines are on the agenda for the next Sprout Editorial Group meeting in Central Library on Thursday 31st May. It's open to everyone, we even made a Facebook event.

I just got called an 'It'. I'm a boy. Not an 'It'. I'm a f***ing human being. Not an 'It'...

50% of Transgenders kill themselves and it's because of s***s like you. S***s like you that make us feel even more insecure than just being in the wrong body already does. You will never understand how horrible it is to look at yourself in the mirror every day and feel sick from the chest down. How it feels when you come on. How it feels when someone calls you the wrong pronoun. How it feels to think no one will ever love you because you're a 'freak'. How it feels to want to kill yourself because you'll never be accept by the world around you, because you t***s live in your little box of narrow-mind ignorance and fear.

But you will never understand the joy I get when someone calls me Cosmo or he. The joy I get knowing I only have three more years to wait, to know although I'll never be able to have my own kids, that just means I have a chance to adopt and change someone else's life for the better and try and stop them going through all the s*** I had to. You will never understand the happiness and pride I feel when I meet other people like me and know that really I'm not alone. So go ahead call me a 'he-she', refuse to call me a boy or Cosmo and carry on calling me Imogen. Call me an 'It', just you try and make me feel like s***. It'll never work.

I'm done giving a f*** and I refuse to let you ruin my life. F*** you. Because we have something you'll never have; Something worth fighting for.

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20 Comments – Post a comment

aura10101

Commented 48 months ago - 16th May 2012 - 14:42pm

lawl people calling other people it to just upset them is so babyish people who do that "grow up"

SamuelPatterson

Commented 48 months ago - 16th May 2012 - 15:03pm

I love this Cosmo! Thank you for sharing this. You're really strong and I have great respect for you for writing and sharing this. Stay strong.

zippedlips

Commented 48 months ago - 16th May 2012 - 15:33pm

Anyone who isn't willing to try to understand ain't worth your time or energy. Cosmo, you deserve respect and you've got it here.You are a human being and you shouldn't ever be made to feel alone. If your interested I've heard there is a "equality in fashion" project that runs on wednesdays which is in the event section of the sprout (sorry if that seems unrelated).

zippedlips

Commented 48 months ago - 16th May 2012 - 15:36pm

Also if you google gendered intelligence (they also have a tumblr) they are a group that works with young trans people.I haven't been yet but they look good.

hisgirl210410

Commented 48 months ago - 16th May 2012 - 16:02pm

I respect you so much for posting this, i can feel your pain through it, you are a strong person and it will get better.
I hope you get the life you want and deserve and by doing so can help others
again stay strong! xxx

AddictedToDrPepper1

Commented 48 months ago - 16th May 2012 - 21:09pm

Thanks all of you! It really means alot! I'd like to get involve with LGBT Wales and Transgender groups around here, if any of you know of any, It'd be great if you could link me to some or give me some info :3 Thanks once again

Sam Sprout (Editor)

Commented 48 months ago - 17th May 2012 - 08:06am

Here's what a quick search of theSproutDirect chucks up for the search term LGBT. And here's the event to which zipped lips refers.

zippedlips

Commented 48 months ago - 17th May 2012 - 14:02pm

well im part of a youth led organisation for lgbt people that you could join if your interested (sorry im not good at explaining)

Sam Sprout (Editor)

Commented 48 months ago - 17th May 2012 - 14:10pm

@zippedlips is that Loud & Proud?

zippedlips

Commented 48 months ago - 17th May 2012 - 15:01pm

no.

Sam Sprout (Editor)

Commented 48 months ago - 17th May 2012 - 15:11pm

Does it have a name or is it secret?

zippedlips

Commented 48 months ago - 17th May 2012 - 15:37pm

its currently undergoing a name change

Sam Sprout (Editor)

Commented 48 months ago - 17th May 2012 - 15:39pm

Could you let us know when it's decided?

hisgirl210410

Commented 48 months ago - 17th May 2012 - 16:15pm

You should defo come to mardi gras this year! you would love it, there ae loads of LGBT groups and loads of cool people there x
Ceck out my rticle on it if your not sure what its all about :) xxx

Sam Sprout (Editor)

Commented 48 months ago - 17th May 2012 - 16:20pm

Review: Mardi Gras 2011

AddictedToDrPepper1

Commented 48 months ago - 17th May 2012 - 19:53pm

I go most years to Mardi Gras :3 I love it. I'd love to get involved with anything LGBT

mardigrasyouthofficer

Commented 48 months ago - 18th May 2012 - 09:36am

Cosmo - Not sure of your aware but there is a Youth Zone at Cardiff Mardi Gras and this year is going to be biggr and better than last year.

The Sprout will be there as well so come along and say hi.

Also Mardi Gras is changing this year so go to www.cardiffmardigras.co.uk and see who we have got lined up on the stage so far...

I am hoping to finalise all the Youth Zone details soon and will keep everyone informed on here of what is happening.

John