I Don't Know What I'm Doing!
Which is great. If you have a set career path in mind.
Which I don't.
Obviously there are lots of people who've known what they want to be for years, and have been able to select subjects that will help them succeed in that career path.
But me? I picked my subjects because I enjoy them, I'm good at them, and I think they'll make me look good. They're a really unusual combination, which hopefully I can pass off as showing that I am diverse and well-rounded, but really are just unconnected and indecisive. (For anyone who's interested, I'm studying Maths, English, Music and German.)
I mean, how many of us at sixteen really know what we want in life? Flash forward ten years and our list of priorities might be completely different from what we would expect
It's a lot of pressure, narrowing down your possible list of further education choices to four subjects, when you're just sixteen. A lot of people do stupid things when they're sixteen, yet are expected to deal with something as mature as deciding your future.
And something that I've noticed: it's hard for the schools to help people with no set career path in mind. And that isn't their fault. They have to lead their students in the right direction, help them to make the decision that's best for them. But when it comes down to it, the only person who can make that decision is you. The school, your parents, your friends, your teachers, they can't tell you what to do with your life.
At least, that's what I tell myself.
Over the last few years, really since I picked my GCSE subjects, I've been drifting between career paths and university subjects. I've considered Law, Maths, History, English, Psychology, Music, and never really found one that suits me.
I've only ever really had one dream, and that's to be a famous author. Is that really too much to ask?
I suppose it is.
And what it always comes down to is this: I don't think it's realistic to put all my hopes into being a writer, because, in the majority of cases, it's incredibly hard to make a living from it (this may not be the best thing to put on a journalism website, but hey-ho, just saying what I think) and you need some kind of back-up career. Hopefully I'll be able to write as a sideline, and then find some amazing person to publish my book, become an international bestseller, however likely or unlikely that is.
And I always think, "I don't need to make these choices now. I've got ages until I need to decide!" Not true. This time next year, I'll be filling out UCAS forms and I'll have chosen, not only my university course, but where I want to live for the next four years of my life.
So what am I going to do with my life? I'm now looking to study languages at university, hopefully gain lots of life experiences to inspire my writing, and generally not fail at life entirely.
I suppose the main reason I'm writing this is because I often feel like I'm alone in this feeling of having no idea what I'm going to do. And to let anyone else who feels like this know that you aren't alone either. And I suppose the main message is: Only you can choose the right future for you, so do something you enjoy, and you can't go wrong.