Beauty And The Proverbial Beast
Being a teenage girl I am bound to have my insecurities. I have different perceptions of beauty.
On the one hand there are the obvious beauties such as Megan Fox, Beyonc and Cheryl Cole. However on the other hand there are not so obvious forms of beauty varying from intelligence, charisma, integrity (all psychological factors of beauty) to girls that are naturally beautiful on the inside and out.
Here I am thinking of Katie Piper a beautiful teenage girl that had acid thrown on her by a vile bitter ex-boyfriend as a form of revenge, which left her with a scarred face needing multiple operations just to restore function, not beauty.
So in a world where so much emphasis is put on the need to be beautiful like celebrities or to be beautiful throughout difficult life-changing facial disfigurements, how is it possible for a normal girl to feel, well, normal?
I am in no way a confident person. I pile layers of makeup on just to hide my insecurities. Take yesterday for an example, I got paid and the first thing I did was leave school, go into town and spend £60 in boots on makeup.
In my make-up drawer (yes, a whole drawer just for makeup) I have no less than twenty three pairs of false eyelashes, nine barely used bottles of varying shades of foundation and as many mascaras as you can buy.
I spend a minimum of £50 a month and sometimes up to £100 on make-up. I devote between fifteen minutes on a school day and up to two hours on a night out to do my make-up.
Some people may call this obsessive and yes it is but if that’s what it takes for me to feel confident then I will do it. Don’t get me wrong, I can function without the war-paint. I have been to school and to town many times without any makeup on but I don’t feel confident and I don’t feel beautiful.
In the dictionary being perfect is defined as conforming absolutely to the description or definition of an ideal type. This tells me that to be perfect is to conform to someone else’s idea of perfection. Who says what’s perfect? I want to meet the person that first said being thin is better, bigger eyes are better, bigger lips are the ideal.
If when I wake up in the morning and look in the mirror and I like what I see, why should I suddenly change my opinion when browsing through this month’s issue of Cosmopolitan or Heat.
So although I will still continue to wear my makeup and look in one of my four full length mirrors, I will also try to remember that bigger isn’t always better, thin isn’t always perfection and beauty is always in the eye of the beholder.