A New Leaf
I sat and cried in the corner, looking down at my arm to see the cut I had made.
It was spring of 2006 and the dawn of my depression. I started to really struggle in school; I was self-harming and seriously considering committing suicide. I had really low self esteem and was struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
My school found out after a fellow pupil reported to a teacher having seen me harm myself. The school, as part of procedure, informed my mum of the difficulties I was having. My mum and the school decided to put me in touch with the CAMHS (Children and Adolescent Mental Health Services) unit in Cardiff.
I started seeing a psychiatrist who helped me to start to talk about my problems. He referred me to a counsellor who spoke to me on a personal level; she was brilliant and gave me methods to deal with the situations I was in.
She did role-play with me which taught me to deal with the immature people in my life who were constantly putting me down. Together we looked at the triggers that led to a 'dip' of depression. The doctors put me on anti-depressants which brought my moods to a healthy level. Each session I spent with my counsellor we set targets to complete before our next session.
In November 2008 I decided it was time for a fresh start. I spoke to my mum about a change of school and we decided to have a look around the local school which was closer to home and would mean I could make friends who lived near to me. In December I moved schools and was hoping for a new leaf, however rumours of the 'old me' got around and people avoided me.
Sadly, my counsellor moved on to another job but before she left she put me in contact with the school counsellor. After a while at my new school people got to see the 'new me' and forgot about the rumours and I made a lovely group of friends.
I am now in Sixth Form College studying Health and Social Care and am hoping to be a youth worker in the future, and work with young people who have the same or similar problems that I had. I hope to give something back to the profession that changed my life.
Written by Charlotte
Image: I'm Broken (You Can't Fix Me)
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Rhoddwyd sylw 67 mis yn ôl - 12th November 2010 - 12:58pm
You have been very brave and courageous to open up about your problems and share your situation with the readers of CLIC. I can appreciate that this could not have been easy for you. By being so open and honest about your situation, I am sure that many other people will be able to relate to your situation. Hopefully this will in turn help others resolve similar experiences within their own lives.
The difficulties which you have described are not uncommon. The impression that I have taken from reading your article is that you have been very determined to resolve things; on your own and with the support of others. It appears that you have been able to access appropriate support mechanisms through CAMHS and your counsellor, which has enabled you to explore your own mind and find a positive way forward in your life. It sounds as if the support which you have received has been very positive and I hope this provides some hope for others in a similar situation. I wish you all the best with your chosen career path, and I am sure that you will be able to utilise many of your own personal experiences into your working with young people.
The Meic Team